February 2012
4 posts
LOL
I miss you each and every day. Yes, I said that I got over you. I meant that. I’ve lost all of those stupid feelings. People said don’t ignore a girl, ‘cause when you do, (an)other guy(s) is ready to give her attention she needs. And it was true. However, to be honest there’s nobody like you. You were so caring, giving me those damn freaking attentions I needed. I just thought it would be...
“Don’t You Remember”
When will...
“Time really flies, people change, feelings change, memories fade, but life must...”
– A friend
January 2012
3 posts
“I tried everything to make you stay, but you went, and I let you go..”
Hey
Yes you, if you read this. yes if only you read this which is almost impossible,
I just want you to know that I miss you. Well, you left with no goodbye, not even a single word was said…
I know, friends doesn’t always have to chat everyday everytime.. but it’s like, you’re suddenly missing. We met anyway at school, yes school. not campus. but we were not talking, not...
2011 --> 2012
2011 well it was a wonderful year. i started the year with people i love the most. my family, my bestfriends, at the beginning i was so sure that 2011 would be a wonderful year. i was not wrong. indeed it was wonderful. however, there were also hard times i faced.
i was so happy. at the beginning of the year. i was so sure that i was going to medschool. i refused all the offers that few...
December 2011
2 posts
BUNDA
this post is for my super hero. my role model. my mom.
you know, every girls have a unique relationship with their mom. some of them are real close, some of them are not. for me, my mom is like my everything. i am very close really really close to my mom, maybe it’s because my dad’s job made him work far away separate from us, and my li’l sissy was born 7years after my being an...
been a year and a year and a half
waktu itu bener-bener jalan secepet kilat ya. nggak kerasa banget. dulu seinget gue masuk xb trs kenalan sama fira dan ga nyadar dia dulu seruangan pas mos sama gue terus gue inget secara tiba-tiba bahwa dia dulu duduk di deket rie dan dia sebel bgt karena nama gue susah (soalnya gue memperkenalkan diri gue ‘Rumaisa’) terus yaudah pas kelas 1 sma itu belom deket-deket banget sering...
November 2011
2 posts
just a few words
yah gue tau mungkin lo gabakalan baca, tp gapapalah, ga ada salahnya gue ngomong disini kan?
halo sahabat, well saudara gue. abang adek semuanya deh jadi satu. gatau kenapa belakangan ini, gue ngerasa lo berubah. berubah dibagian mana dan jadi gimana jg nggak jelas. yang jelas gue ngerasa aja ada yang lain dr lo. bukan, bukan ke arah yang positif, tapi cenderung ke arah yang gak bagus. maaf ya...
ya emang ga bisa. mau diapain juga ga bisa. belom kali ya. semua butuh waktu. semua butuh perjuangan. ya deh ya deh. nyesel loh mulai ini semua. kenapa sih gue mesti make perasaan? kenapa? kenapa gue ditakdirkan sebagai orang yg kelewat setia. apaan sih gue ngelantur. yaudah biarin aja. duh gasuka banget sama keadaan kaya gini. yaudah deh kalkulus aja atau kimia deh kimia. fisika juga biar gak E...
October 2011
4 posts
“So, as decided. I already deleted your contact number. So whatever the thing is,...”
life
life goes on, people change. we change. we just don’t realize it. people around you feel it. the question is, are you ready for a change? are you ready to lose your best friends. separate from distance, time, busy-ness of life? are you ready to grow up? it means you are not allowed to do stupid things, you are forbidden to act childish.
and the next question is, are you ready for a new...
“.. and i just can’t hold the tears…”
i miss them
i miss those moment, when we were laughing, freely.
no pressure, well yes there were, but we didn’t give a damn. we laughed, we shared pain, we studied, we ate, played, gossipped, together.
if only i could turn back time
i would cherish every moment
September 2011
5 posts
“Hai Rum, mau sampe berapa lama lagi nge-freak gini? 6 years is not a short time...”
I'm doomed~ well, who cares?
I QUIT
August 2011
6 posts
“Yeah, I’ve missed you..”
Time
ga enak ga enak ga enak ga enak ga enak ga enak ga enak :’(
i wanna be free, i wanna sing through the hall, i wanna scream out loud, i wanna dance in the middle of the rain, i wanna run, cry, and laugh at the same time.
but i just keep quiet, and standing still, watching you pass by
watching you leaving.
i wish i could turn back time
Mad
I’m not the type of those girl you will fall in love at the first sight. I’m not pretty, not attractive, not that friendly
You will easily ignore me and forget me.
But one thing for sure, I have this ambition.
One day, you will look at me and dazed by my achievement
and when that day comes, I will ignore and forget you, like the way you do to me
“Maybe I was destined not to be anybody’s bestfriend too long. Maybe I was...”
“I’ve said it before, the pain is real. I need spaces and times....”
– you got the message?
July 2011
5 posts
BYE
Since I found out that it’s not safe anymore to blabber and ‘galau’ing here I decided to buy a journal and write there, but as I promise, I won’t delete the previous post. I don’t care if someday I read this and then I vomit. haha yeah few last word from me
I wish this thing doesn’t exist. I wish I didn’t start anything. I wish I could find a rebound guy. I don’t care even he’s just a...
i mean it
yeah, i always mean every single word i said. when i said, “God, i can’t imagine a day without talking something mushy and trashy with you…” i mean it. i mean every single word i said.
i’m afraid of losing you, not in “love and passionate” way, but more in familial (is that the word?) way. and i also mean the word “i feel bad if i still talk to you...
pedih bro :)
Miris aja sih mayan kl denger lo cerita. Yah jadi emg yang kemaren-maren itu bercanda ya. Hmm iya sih lo bener, emg ga boleh. Tp kemaren2 itu, if I am not mistaken, 7months ago, lo-nya super flirty loh. You didn’t act like someone’s bestfriend. Maybe it was just a game :) I totally understand.
But the pain is real, it’s just…. Hard ;)
“I’m gonna find another you”
– John Mayer
So is this the end?
i know, it’s about the time. i’m quite sure about that
i promise to God, i pray to Him
“God, please let me get into my dream college. even i have to let him go, even i can’t be like this close to him anymore, even he had to get back with her. but please let me get accepted into that dream college.”
well, God says YES. but not only in “getting accepted into...
June 2011
3 posts
:"
i don’t want to lose you. i’m scared that someday you’ll leave me. i want you to be here. i want you to substitute my dad whenever he’s not around. i’m afraid of losing you :( i’m not ready. i know i know i shouldn’t be like this. you gotta go with your own life and happiness. i wish all the best for you. i wish and i promise i will help, i will help you...
“I won’t take anything that doesn’t belong to me”
“the thing is, i don’t want and i’m not ready to lose you..”
March 2011
2 posts
this kind of friendship? are you sure?
yeah, gue tau sih sebenernya semua ini salah. sebenernya semua ini nggak seharusnya dimulai. sebenernya semua ini nggak seharusnya terjadi.
gue percaya sama yang namanya apapun yang terjadi itu nggak semuanya murni takdir. oke ada yang murni takdir, tapi nggak semuanya. ada hal2 dimana kita bisa milih maunya gimana. sedangkan gue memutuskan untuk meneruskan ini semua,
dengan konsekuensi bakalan...
“I fell in love with this friendship..”
hello
Uhm,hello it’s been a long time isn’t it? Well ihave nothing to share that’s why I didn’t post anything.
Well,yeah I think that’s all.sorry for spamming
“catching your dream is like chasing a beautiful cloud. it seems easy, the truth...”
February 2010
9 posts
“Here, let me help you”
– A
Lovely Thursday
I used to hate Thursday. but today, Thursday is perfect. it felt like, this Thursday healed all of my aches and pains.
It’s not even important. firstly, because there’s this person. I won’t tell it clearly, because I’m not sure about this feeling. I can’t call it love since i know where my heart belongs. I can’t call it crush too because I don’t feel...
random 2
I hate growing old. by the way, who doesn’t? well, i was very sensitive nowadays. i don’t care. I’m tired of all this sickening game. it’s actually not a game, it’s a miniature of life. with all problems, pros and cons, friends and betrayer, trying to be honest instead of cheating and do something bad. I miss my life when i was just a little tiny 4 years old girl....
random
i don’t like being tired. well, who doesn’t. but i don’t like being very busy. and the truth is, i hate, seriously hate when i have to do multitasking. it sucks. i feel like there are always many things waiting to be done. and i can’t do it all perfectly. call me perfectionist. but it was. it was years ago. when i still have so many free time. when i was able to hanging out...
Losing voice
Arum : (telling a whole story about initiation night to her family, but her voice had gone)
Bunda : What about your voice? what happened?
Arum : Don't really know. I'm to powerful perhaps
Bunda : I think you were damned..
Arum : ..................
friends?
we all have friends. but, are they our true friends? they would do anything, anytime, to save you if you’re in danger. they wouldn’t mind laugh at you if you do something stupid but they are the first person who come to save you if you do something reckless. they wouldn’t mind to tell you the truth, even the worst one.
i guess i haven’t been a good friends.
:')
let’s turn the cry into a wide smile. you’re in your high school year. you’re Junior now, it’s time to move on. 4 years is enough, more than enough. you were not make a move, so what do you expect? your dreams come true? it’s all bullshit. life is unfair, life is hard. you want to get closer with him? make move. you didn’t. so it’s all your fault, if now,...
i wanna tell you something...
that there are so many people hate you. they hate you for the same reason i don’t like you. your egoistic side. but i don’t know how to tell you. because if i tell you the truth. you’ll get mad at me, at us.
so, what should i do? i don’t want, and i don’t like talking behind your back. telling your dirty laundry. it’s ashame. but i don’t know how tell you...
January 2010
13 posts
i'm not moving,yet
when i said i’m ready to move on, the truth is i was trying. when i said i’m fine now, after discovering what had happenned, the truth is i’m not fine at all. however, i’m trying, i’m healing, i’m recovering, the pains, the feeling. yes, it hurts. the truth is, i caused my own pains. everybody move on. so why don’t us? the truth is, let me try and wipe the...
i'm not moving,yet
when i said i’m ready to move on, the truth is i was trying. when i said i’m fine now, after discovering what had happenned, the truth is i’m not fine at all. however, i’m trying, i’m healing, i’m recovering, the pains, the feeling. yes, it hurts. the truth is, i caused my own pains. everybody move on. so why don’t us? the truth is, let me try and wipe the...
