2011 —> 2012

2011 well it was a wonderful year. i started the year with people i love the most. my family, my bestfriends, at the beginning i was so sure that 2011 would be a wonderful year. i was not wrong. indeed it was wonderful. however, there were also hard times i faced.

i was so happy. at the beginning of the year. i was so sure that i was going to medschool. i refused all the offers that few universities gave me. i refused to take ppkb UI, i refused to take pmdk UNS, i even refused the mighty snmptn undangan. because i was so sure that i was going to attend that medschool. all of the teachers, friends, families, they were all so sure that i was capable being in that medschool. i know, i was so arrogant. i even hate myself for being that arrogant. the thing i was grateful enough was ppkb UI and pmdk UNS was canceled and changed into snmptn undangan.

my birthday was superb! i celebrated it with my friends in xii ipa a. well they (esp Rara, Arrum, Firky, Dina, Anara etc etc) they gave me surprises, a cake! w-o-w thanks a lot guys, and because i and Intan had the same date of birthday and we were in the same class so the cake was for us! and xii ipa a also gave me a wonderful gift they soiled my face with the dust of whiteboard eraser!! which means, my face turned ALL BLACK. dammit i love you guys, you don’t know how much i miss you guys. anyway, Bertos was so mean! he ignored me for weeks!!!! he said he was going to give me something, but because of his laziness it turned out he didn’t give me anything and he congratulated me THE LAST, after i ask him what did i do wrong? GRRRH, i was so furious! and Fira gave me the longest, touchiest, birthday wishes, hufft, that was the most wonderful february ever.

and the disaster came, the announcement of pbs. yeah yeah, i was not accepted. do you want to know how it feels? it feels like you are already flying up high and you’re end up slammed hardly to the earth. it was like you’re slapped by your own mother. it hurts. a lot. and i was ashame to accept the reality. teachers, families, all of them were so sure, GOSH, what did i do wrong? alright, maybe i was so snob back then, and the words there’s always a silver lining, was totally correct! you know, if i really wanted to be a doctor, it doesn’t matter where i studied, but it was a matter to me. that’s because i didn’t really want to be a doctor. so with hard, biting argument and deep conversation. i ask my dad if i can apply to an engineering school. my dad was not agree. but at the end finally he agreed. the good news, Bertos was accepted, imma proud bestfriend, dude!! and the bad news, Fira wasn’t accepted too.. so I and Fira have to fight harder to face the frightening, snmptn tertulis

through the days left before snmptn tertulis i was studying so damn hard. i and fira was supporting each other. although we didn’t have the same direction anymore. i changed the major i was going to. i wanted to go to itb, and fira was still with her first major she was going to, med school. it was a hard time, trust me. we were pushed so hard. luckily, i got my mom and dad that was always supporting me, my sister that always gave her best to make me not too pressured, and my bestfriend around. thogh he’s already in bandung and do the matriculation program, err i’m not sure but i think he was.. but thank God, i don’t know what will happen to me if he wasn’t there supporting me.

you know, when you are being rejected, you just need supports from the one that already accepted but able to support you. why? because when you ran into your friends that also bieng rejected, it was a huge mistake. they also as worried as you, you couldn’t be that selfish to ask them to support you, they also need supports.

the wonderful times came right away, God listens my prayer (anyway, all of the paragraph, not just my being accepted) i got accepted. until today, i can still feel the joyous moment when i open the annoucement and found the words “SELAMAT…” so happy i even bursted into tears. Fira was also accepted, in the first place imma proud proud bestfriend, she deserved it!!

and finally the time came, i was becoming a freshmen student in ITB. at first i was a little bit scared that i will be the lone ranger there since none of my bestbud got accepted in that college. well i forgot that i already have a family member there. no matter how hard the situation was, how bad mood i was, how mean i could be, how ambitious i was, how weepy and sensitive i AM, and how careless i could be. i still got my family there. still could hit the D keypad to make an emergency call, at least until i have a settled number to be my forever emergency call i was able to call him whenever i feel like crying or…. going home late~

i don’t care about what people say. they don’t know anything. i was so happy. and i was not that lonely. i was easily make friends. in class, i got Gina and Joan. we’re always together except in calculus class. and i also hang with Akira and Thaya. they are my highschool mates. in highschool i wasn’t so closed with them because i’ve never been in the same class. but we’re being close in ITB. i also make friends with Arinka, Angel, Osa, and Sirka.

you see, i’m not that wallflower actually. muehehehe.

i ended the year of 2011 alone. not with my bestfriends, not my family cause my dad was off working and my mom was sick. i guess the end was not perfect. pretty bad i could say. but yeah, maybe the end of 2012 would be sweet :D

2012 i wish……………………………………………….yeah, it’s private anyway :D